"I want you to know that, you are okay" - Boy Abunda

I celebrate my uniquness!!! :)

That is one point that Boy Abunda talked about yesterday which I really appreciate and touched my heart. (I was really teary-eyed yesterday)

His words went like these, I want you to know that whoever or however you are, that YOU ARE OKAY.

It was because, he said, he understands us (students) because of the latter part of his life. During his college days where he felt so different and insecure by everyone. He came from Samar province and studied in Ateneo where the culture was so different from what he grew up with (from his way of talking to his things). He shared that all of his stuff where being sent from Samar to Manila. There was this instance that on his way to school, what he was wearing was similar to the bus' conductor's clothes. He recalled that it was one of the saddest moments of his life.

And that time, he wanted to hear from someone an affirmation that despite of how different he was and how awful he thinks his situation was, he wanted someone to say to him that HE IS OKAY. That, he should not blend with the others as long as he is on the good side of things.

Good thing I captured part of it:

It was just his introduction to the talk proper (Branding the stars). It was about how stars get their titles (e.g. Megastar, Multimedia star etc.) in other words, their brands. Whereas, he said, the most important thing is instilling your true core as an artist or as person too, your uniqueness.

Anyway, his introduction were the words I really needed to hear these past few days (just feeling a little lost in this big world). I realized that just now, while doing this blog. Thank you Tito Boy Abunda, you never fail to inspire me. (A big fan over here)

Happy!

This really makes me happy! :) 
got it from Yellow Adventures




Just pure Happiness.

Let's fly

I remember, the first time I had to check out this video, I did not have the patience to finish the video because I stopped before the song even began. The first scenes were just a little too long for me that time.

Then, this song came out in the radio stations and I realized, it's a nice song. An uplifting one. I've always liked songs which give out messages about staying strong even with all the the put downs we all experience in life. The feeling of being inferior in what you want to do in life but then, you hear songs like this and you realize the world's not a dead end. You're here to do something you are made for (even how cliche this is).

Fly - Nicki Minaj feat. Rihanna

[Rihanna - Chorus]
I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly

[Nicki Minaj]
I wish today it will rain all day
Maybe that will kinda make the pain go away
Trying to forgive you for abandoning me
Praying but I think I’m still an angel away
Angel away, yeah strange in a way
Maybe that is why I chase strangers away
They got their guns out aiming at me
But I become near when they aiming at me
Me, me, me against them
Me against enemies, me against friends
Somehow they both seem to become one
A sea full of sharks and they all see blood
They start coming and I start rising
Must be surprising, I’m just surmising
Win, thrive, soar, higher, higher, higher
More fire

[Rihanna - Chorus]
I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly

[Nicki Minaj - Verse 2]
Everybody wanna try to box me in
Suffocating everytime it locks me in
Paint they own pictures than they crop me in
But I will remain where the top begins

Cause I am not a word, I am not a line
I am not a girl that can every be defined
I am not fly, I am levitation
I represent an entire generation
I hear the criticism loud and clear
That is how I know that the time is near
So we become alive in a time of fear
And I aint got no muthaf-cking time to spare
Cry my eyes out for days upon days
Such a heavy burden placed upon me
But when you go hard your nay’s become yay’s
Yankee Stadium with Jay’s and Kanye’s

[Rihanna - Chorus]
I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly

[Nicki Minaj - Bridge]
Get ready for it
Get ready for it
Get ready for it
I came to win
Get ready for it
Get ready for it
I came to win

[Rihanna - Chorus]
I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly

Repost: Why do you have to be so damn rude?

Posted in http://shenshitif.wordpress.com/page/2/ last December 27, 2009

I love you Michael Jackson!!!! You do have a good heart. =) A very genuine one.

I just watched the movie “This is it”. Thanks to my friends in the industry who give a great difference of discounts, but yeah, not-so-original-type-of-watching-experience.

What the people that I’ve been talking to and how Kris and Boy agreed that Michael Jackson is truly a straight man, and for me, with a heart that cares, were the very things I felt within that documentary-like movie of his rehearsals. It made us get a closer witness of how much Michael does that passionate effort on his craft, aside from seeing the main production, that is magnificent in itself.

He literally touched my heart whenever he would say, “I love you.”.. “God Bless” to the staff, in between their rehearsals. He has that inert respect and appreciation for the people, but at the same time instructing the people how to be exact on what he imagines a certain part of the production would be. I admire him whenever a does a different thing and he would instruct him/her and say afterwards, with a smile and his typical soft voice, “That’s why we rehearse”. Making them feel fine and not to be intimidated with their mistake.

I feel inspired by him right now and hoping to always be.

I love how I see him after watching the movie. I know, this is cliché, you only realize the worth of a person even more when he’s gone.

I guess it’s not that, I or we did not entirely saw and felt Michael Jackson’s true worth, It was just not enough. I’ve overlooked his heart… maybe because I thought, he did not want his race at all.. that he is a gay who abuse little boys in his neverland farm.. that he is such a weirdo or a mad artist after showing off his child from a window, several floors high. It’s because, the truths on that matter were all covered up, and were easy and ready information were the negatives. The media abused his goodness.. that’s how it was. I would like to perceive it as that.

Just recently, I went to National Bookstore as a personal hobby of browsing almost everything that is being sold in it. When I was in the part of books, I saw “UNMASKED”, I wanted to buy it but as usual, I can’t. The lack of money, dude. I got even more excited when I read the teaser at the back of the book.

That was what I exactly wanted, to know the truth about everything that has to do with his death. The plain thing that happened.

To satisfy somehow my longing for the book, I searched for the reviews on the internet, but then I was disappointed with how the critics think about the book and the author. One of the many oppositions on the book was a blog inhttp://bestofmichaeljackson.jclondon.com, and the title was “Buyer Beware – “Unmasked” Complete Trash! Why? Because it is full of mistakes, fiction and unproven accusations.”

I guess, they don’t believe or commend how the author got the information for the book.. or simply because they’re against MJ. *sigh* I won’t let it lead me into believing their own beliefs on MJ but I would still preserve what I truly felt about him and I would still want to read that book, no matter what, then have my own judgment.

My tip and realization on this blog? Create your own judgment, your own perceptions, as much as possible, listen but don’t always be deceived, be your own investigator.

So, the title of this blog entry’s kind of way far huh? But, it fits somehow. Well, I got the title and why this blog was created on the first place, was because, my sister was bullying me, (though I triggered it haha) and so, I just watched the movie and I was feeling very positive at the time, I didn’t fight back and instead started this blog on my notebook and wrote the title first and that was for her.

M.J. ♥

"M.J. taught me that." - Mirror by Lil Wayne ft. Bruno Mars.

I did not really read/watched a lot of stuff about Michael Jackson (M.J.) I just saw and heard what the local networks had to offer and those were not a lot and enough.

And maybe most of the news who were able to reach local people whom do not really dig up information and watch foreign shows were twisted and sensationalized, like me as a child in those times.

I remember one news that struck me and affected me was about the children that M.J.  allegedly harassed in his Neverland farm. I can still remember how I got disgusted about M.J.'s disposition and as an individual. That's the first thing I remember when I try to think what were the news I saw way back as a child. It had the most impact aside of course from his death and wake.

But, you know what? Whenever I would watch his performances when the T.V. networks would premiere his concerts, I would still be in awe. He is brilliant. And for a while, I thought of him as not human because of how he performs. I was even mystified by his skin and face.

And then, last 2009 he died. I cried when I heard about it. We were not even personally close and was not an avid fan either. But, his death affected me. I figured, maybe because he was (and still) such a big artist. And his music has a power to touch everyone's heart.

So, his rehearsals for his upcoming concert was released ("This is it"). I realized, I love him. Here's a quote from my post about M.J. in my old blog (www.shenshitif.wordpress.com):

"He literally touched my heart whenever he would say, “I love you.”.. “God Bless” to the staff, in between their rehearsals. He has that inert respect and appreciation for the people, but at the same time instructing the people how to be exact on what he imagines a certain part of the production would be. I admire him whenever a does a different thing and he would instruct him/her and say afterwards, with a smile and his typical soft voice, “That’s why we rehearse”. Making them feel fine and not to be intimidated with their mistake."

(Here's the whole post: CLICK)

I felt how geuine he is towards every people and to his performances. And, media formed an impression about him that was not worth of him.

And that quote from Lil Wayne's song struck me yesterday when I heard it from the radio.

I mean, everyone was touched by M.J., the magic he has. I really appreciate how every artists were/are influenced by him from Justin Bieber to Lil Wayne. It just shows how much love he had shared and he is receiving up to this day.

I honestly, can't literally stop myself from saying, "I love you Michael Jackson!" whenever I would hear his songs. :">

I LOVE YOU MICHAEL JACKSON! 

Daunting scenarios I imagine.

In the comings days, weeks, months and years to come, I would be doing things I have never done in my life and I know it would be up to the next level. It's like the right time to take a step higher on the stairs of my life. 

And, you see it has been a recurring thought these days (worried). Now, just in the right time I recently followed a blog and it is all about inspirations, (http://mydoseofinspiration.wordpress.com).

She had a series of posts in my blog updates box and not actually thinking, I randomly clicked one of her posts and coincidentally it is about our fears. 


Honestly, it's really my fears which hold me back to "go for it" (the things I think of that I want to reach or become someday). And maybe, because of those fears, I result to thinking that I don't want to do this and that anymore. But, then I realized, after reading the quotes from her blog post, maybe my fears just covered everything. It made me limit myself from every possibilities.


 “Monsters are real. Ghosts are real, too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.”
-Stephen King


It was just me who was thinking that I could not do these big things I think of. Everything should be possible as long as you are on the positive side of things. :)


Then, in her blog she quoted this also:

“What would you do if you weren’t afraid?”
–Who Moved My Cheese?


I pondered, that is right. What would you do if being scared would not come in your way whenever you think of doing something? (of course with a touch of moderation) There would be a lot of chances taken and possibilities worth having. :)


P.S.
I dowloaded a PDF of "Who Moved My Cheese?", going to read it. :)